It is all very wibbly wobbly.

Am I a terrible person? Why else would people so often be angry with me and annoyed by me to the point that they must tell me so? I say, ‘so often,’ but that is probably a fallacy my depressed self thinks of, when in fact For every mean-to-me person in my life, there are probably 42 kind and positive ones if. If I ever sat down and did the math, I bet it would be somewhere around there — 42, I mean.

In my head, I have only ever tried to be nice and pleasing to everyone in my path. I have been taken advantage of several times as  a result (you know, the whole people pleaser thing). When I finally started standing up for myself at times, I discovered that some people don’t like that, and I just get more comments from them about what a horrible person I am.

I think, ‘You must experience me differently than I experience me.’ Which I suppose leads to, ‘I must experience you differently than you experience you.’

Is the world really at war all of the time? Is there no peace anywhere? Can we all just decide to be kind to each other? Can NPR do a story about a country that is awesome and peaceful during rush hour tomorrow and share hope that peace is attainable? (I have to bring the microcosm of small disputes between people to the larger issue of world peace of course. Because if we could just all get along, then there wouldn’t be war, would there be?)

How do I stay away from people who are hurtful? And how can I help them so they do not just turn around and hurt someone else? Or to them, am I the hurtful one? It is all very wibbly wobbly.

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8 thoughts on “It is all very wibbly wobbly.

  1. “Can NPR do a story about a country that is awesome and peaceful during rush hour tomorrow and share hope that peace is attainable?”

    That would be nice. I practically drool over any feel-good fluff story they throw at me, because otherwise my commute is all “Everything sucks in Seria, and everybody in congress is an asshole” over and over again. (so why do I listen? I guess I’m just an NPR junkie…)

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